Farewell For Now

"It's like yelling in a sea of voices."~Anonymous

I was chatting with a friend about Facebook last night. She commented that commenting/posting was "like yelling  in a sea of voices."  I thought surely this can not be true.  I personally read 98% of what my friends post.  I invest myself into Facebook and give of myself.  Each and every friend is cared about.  I pray for, cry tears, and rejoice with all of you.  If there is a way I can help, then I try.  What I learned is that not everyone returned that.  If one is not going to read their friends post, then why have them as a Facebook friend?  Now are there days I missed posts?Yes. However, that was not the norm.  This revelation further drove home the desire to build relationships with those that truly want to know what is going on in my life.  I want to be more personally involved and show that you are heard and matter.  

Many have asked why I am removing myself from Facebook. There are a few reasons for my decision. The choice to leave was not one I decided over night. Facebook has appeal and can benefit some. I believe there are three main reasons. 1) Conviction 2) Moderation 3) Frustration.

1)Scripture tells us that we can not have two masters, because we will love the one and hate the other. I can not devote a major portion of my day to Facebook and fulfill God's purpose. I am not proud that there were days I would not read the Bible, but log hours into Facebook. Slowly and surely Facebook got the best of me. I should have spent more time connecting with those around me. To build better friendships I need to listen and show that what my friends are saying is heard. Life as a Christian is becoming more and more challenging. I need a close knit support group. Individuals to walk along side me to help me be a better person. To point me towards Christ when the road is difficult so I can become a Kingdom Woman.

I do have concerns that a life without Facebook will leave me lonely.  Invitations will slack off and that I will be forgotten. That I will miss a ministry opportunity.  The devil knows that this is an area to pull me back in.  God has a reason for me to leave and He will place individuals in my life to keep me company.  People survived before Facebook and I will too.  If God wants me to minister then He will orchestrate the details.  

2)Somewhere along the path Facebook decided to moderate my posts. I could not see certain friends updates, nor could I share as I saw fit. Whomever was in charge took it upon themselves to decide what I could see or share. I am not ok with this. Another form of moderation I experienced was moderating what I said. This was suppose to be my profile/wall and yet I could not be free. Being politically correct has a place, but sometimes the truth needs to be voiced.

3)I am frustrated that one can not have an intellectual debate without the need to prove one side right or wrong. Certain topics will not always have a right or wrong end. Both parties have to agree to disagree and move forward. Frustration set in when my words were misconstrued. So when someone started seeing me as mean,cruel,judgmental, hypocritical, racist, small minded, or belittling I was hurt. I never want my words to hurt anyone. When you get to the heart of me you will see a kindhearted, only wants the best for her friends/family, loyal, determined, and humorous Christian.

In closing, I care about my friends and family members. I want to keep in touch and I feel blogging is a better method to do so. Send me comments, emails, letters, texts, and photos whenever you think of me. I intend to do the same.

Blessings,

K